Can't take it any more

I can't take it any more.. at least i don't think i can. I hate that when i sit here i still feel like a god damn outsider. I am tired of no matter what i say it seems to be casted aside becasue they have done it bigger and better... i'm just a girl and you know i can't do the same shit. I am so sick and tired of the bitching and the moaning about EVERY GOD DAMN LITTLE THING. >_< Oh my god i knew i complained from time to time but this is just god damn redicilous! There like girls... no no there WORSE then girls. Here i am bending over backwards to drive them, make sure they have food and just doing what i can to make things better but they keep getting in a bad mood- like no matter what i do it's not good enough. Now for there credit they have payed a bit in gas and food which i do appericate but you know there's a lot of shit i did that i didn't HAVE to to. I didn't have to give them my ps2 so they could play games cuz there systems got stolen. But i did.. i went down to storage and got it out for them. And yes they got games for it and even on more me!....but i don't get to play it much cuz the boys tend to take over. I spent the last of my money on food for the storm that is hitting us right now...and i wanted doughnuts ( I mean come on how can you say no to those things?) And they bitch at me for getting snack food. Well you know what? When i get stressed i like chocolate.. so pardon me if i raid the dounghts and easter candy aisle to make my self feel better since i HATE STORMS... No really i do. And to top it all off it's me one month anniversy with my boy....and how did i spend it?.. Watching them play Starwars and bitching about how long it's taking for me to DL and Burn the star wars movies for them....why the fuck do i even try at this point.... i just... i give up. Tomorrow i am dropping him off at working and going home and doing what I want to do....and no one is gonna bitch or moan at me or complain.... Cuz to be honest i am getting ready to throw the towel in... i deal with a bunch of kids at work i don't wanna deal with it when i am OFF Work. Come on storms bring on the rain- time to wash away the past and start anew.